Is this real??

Is what we have really real?
Or am I just going through the motions?
Are you really supposed to be with me?
Are you everything I want?
Will we grow into what I have always dreamed?
I know I can't change you but God can.

Should I wait until you change?
Or does God have something else for me?
Until I know I'm going to keep praying that God will show me the way.

I love you and always will.
But is being with you forever in God's will?
I pray for the day when i can get a clear answer.
Maybe God has already given me answer and i'm not paying attention.
I'm so confused.......

IS THIS REAL????